utopia lost.

i found out some horribly tragic news tonight about the city i love and a friend i knew. he wasn't one of my closest friends but he was a close friend of one of my closest friends in portland. he was murdered in his own home in north portland. they aren't sure but i think the police believe it was a burglary. i am dumbstruck right now. i can't process it. i'm exhausted but i can't sleep. i can't think of anything but what a good person he was. i had hung out with him a bunch of times and he was always so funny and happy and so sweet. and now he's gone for no reason and it's just so crazy. i know it's thanksgiving and i don't mean to put a damper on the holiday but i can't help but think that this is a reminder to be thankful of everything you have and every breath you take. so much time is wasted on meaningless crap and it's just such an incredible shame. my heart goes out to his family and all of his friends. i can't imagine what they must be going through. i wish all of you a safe holiday.